I had asked my prayer buddy to pray that I may find financial clarity. Apparently she was very successful, albeit in an unexpected way. Late Friday afternoon I was told that I was being let go from my job. It upset me greatly. I was hurt and angry. It felt very personal.
Talking with DH later that evening I came to realize it was exactly what I needed. You see, I really didn't like the person I was becoming at this job. It was a place full of gossip, rude language, and some downright nastiness. As much as I knew I shouldn't gossip, I still did. As much as I knew I shouldn't engage in petty behavior, I still did. I knew I needed to make a change but was too lazy to do it. So it was handed to me.
I started thinking about things I wanted to do in the time off I might have between jobs. I really want to make it productive. I thought this is going to be a great time to address projects around the house and yard, things I need to do for the upcoming Advent season at church, books I want to read, job hunting, etc, etc, etc. You can see where this is going? A spinning mind and a terribly unsettled feeling.
Sunday Mass seemed to be designed just for me. When I heard the second reading it was like a light went on.
Philippians 4: 6 - 9
Have no anxiety about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which passes all understanding, will keep your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, do; and the God of peace will be with you.During Fr. O's sermon following the gospel, I felt like a spotlight was directed right on me. He talked about filling your mind with what is right and just and good. Leave no room for pettiness and evil. And if someone says "A penny for your thoughts" tell them that what you are thinking is worth much more than that.
I don't know what is coming next for me, things are still unsettled. But whatever it is, I'm going to try to approach it with peaceful thoughts.